Renewal

There is so much going through my mind atm. This past couple of days were refreshing when you realize that there are others in this world that struggle as i do. And they are fighting the battle and winning. Today i just relaxed after coming home from an exhausting trip upstate...wedding. Being involved in lots of activities sorrounded by people who i dont know. There was a couple of times during the weekend where i just wanted to give up and go home. I wanted to give up on everything and wish the world would end so i wouldnt have to suffer this anymore. But i fought through it and learned a lot about myself and under estimating others... I dont like giving people and situations a chance in the event that something goes terribly wrong. You stand still in that frame of mind though and discontinue any progress and refused to move forward. I have set some goals for myself for the next couple of months. I want to live life and not work my self up about the past or present... Anyways im still trying to reset my body time clock since its still out of wack. Going to bed. EC